2 states of my life: by parag in his own words

it is 1:30 AM Monday morning right now and still sleep seems elusive, sitting on my bed dealing with this deafening silence i summon the courage to write something about me which is neither articulated nor factitious.
it is a famous maxim that life keeps on changing every moment, people are aware of it but this prescience does not help when it comes on you to bear the changes offered by life and something like this happened with me also.

State:2 of my life ::::::::::

Location : Pune from 23rd july 2008 to 21st Oct 2008

btw 23rd july was my joining date in IBM

joining IBM was not a great decision , in fact it manifests my trepidation and timidness. i opted for it because i gave up. after getting rejected through out the first phase of IIT campus placement which includes some big shots and respectable recruiters i was unable to hold my confidence. this leads to a desperation to get a job ASAP and since we all know that impatience is a virtue of loser and hence it was. there was one other guy with me who also joined the IBM but all our plans were converted into apprehensions very soon as we were assigned to MAINFRAMES, Actually it was not the worst part. worst thing happened after sometime.

Pune was a good experience. MAINFRAME batch was good and i honestly found the training almost bearable. at that time i was interested in that technology. after completion of training we all cleared the elimination test easily and consequently absorbed by IBM for 1 year probation period. IN PUNE some guys like uddy,sanjeev and dilip were great and hats off to chacha jaan. chacha jaan was also the member of our IIT fraternity but far more wise than me and satya ( the other IIT guy who joined the IBM with me). he left IBM in 2008 itself and opted for a core company. today he is the king of our hearts.

Location : Bangalore FROM 22nd Oct 2008

it was the time for the drama to get started. we were allocated to different projects in IBM through out the country. me and satya got bangalore. frankly we were happy for that because we were planning to switch our jobs and bangalore was corporate hub. we readily accepted the decree to go to bangalore and joined IBM bangalore.

well we started and the first surprise IBM gave us was to allocate us in a project where we don't need to know anything which was given us during training. this was the last nail in the coffin for satya. it was really frustrated and dangerous for our professional trajectories. from the day we started working on that esoteric technology , satya also started to find out the way to get out from the BIG BLUE ( IBM).

satya left IBM in may last year but it was not the proper quit. he left the IBM without a job and hence left a lesson for all of us too. the moral was simple-" there is no use to do a job for some bucks if you are not passionate about it". well passion sometimes takes the backseat in the case of less mortals like me.

meanwhile i was also fighting for love. my love story is different as i am the only person to call it a love story. generally i don't have that flowers kind of guy image and it will be hard for you to believe on my love story but you will believe in the end anyways. the best part of my love story is that there is only one girl and i haven't met her. it will sound funny to you but whenever i told her about my feelings she came up with a real intelligent answer.

"everytime i was told that you are not in love parag , you just think that it is love because you don't know any girl but me" :(
it is ironic and also an oxymoron because you generally think that the person whom you love is the best person in the whole world and that is the very reason you love that person. I think that love is not a quest to a find a perfect person but it is an intelligence and a wisdom to go along smoothly with imperfections. anyways it was bound to happen but i guess she is right. she is the only girl known to me so may be i was missing something by opting her. she was too kind to me. she perhaps think that i deserve a better one. well even if do, how i will feel for her in the same way i felt for you.

but there is a positive point with me. i think all the girls are very adorable (except who hang out with guys smarter than me or who are very shrew and arrogant). So i guess i will find another one easily ( really not so easy i tell you ). in nutshell , my love story was like an aeroplane without a pilot which crashed right into a mountain. it is over and there are no glitches anymore.

"anyways hats off to that girl"

Well guys i am still in bangalore doing the worst work of my life....i will tell you the about the remaining state of my life in the next post...........

meanwhile have a good time.......

( TO BE CONTD..........)